Evil Eye

 I am Jennifer. The eldest millennial daughter. First born, granddaughter, and niece. I came into this world to put an end to the continuation of generational curses. I chose to be born to a Karen and Robert. I chose for my brother to be Kyle. The universe reflects back at me as each of my previous family members played the role that now fits a stereotype society calls out. 

I some how managed to build my own picket fence and make all of my dreams come true. I have the nuclear family that American's have been idolizing since the 1950's. My husband contains all the attributes desired by a woman wanting a safe and secure happy family. He is supportive in all avenues I explore. He meets all emotional and physical needs. He is an involved parent. Animals and children naturally gravitate and find comfort in his presence. He will satisfy any need, regulate any emotional disturbance within me, and turn any of my ideas into reality. My husband is capable of handling any crisis. He has given our family the opportunity to travel and see the world. He is kind and gentle and there is not a soul that could compete with what he provides to our family. I have the best husband. 

I have a beautiful daughter carrying on my legacy of creating a stir of chaos. An entire reflection of myself I cannot deny, triggering those that wish to no longer deal with me, she carries the torch. When my mouth is shut, the words fly out of hers without hesitation. She has the courage to say no and refuse. She can stand up where I withdraw. She will never be taken advantage of or manipulated.

My son is my peace. Stubborn but kindhearted he could never hurt a soul. His moral compass more configured to follow his father, right from wrong is easily discernible. He is genuine and comedic. He easily leads where others follow. His intellect is advanced and he has an old soul with spiritual gifts that grow with him. He is down to earth and his potential is limitless.

I have climbed corporate ladders and been successful in my careers. I went back to school and secured higher educational degrees when I had given up and thought it was impossible. I have accomplished all things ingrained in me that I thought were necessary to determine success.

I said I would be married, have my children, and own a home by age 30. I did that. I helped a lot of people through the fields I chose to work. I touched lives and made huge impacts to organizations that would continue creating progressive change for society. 

I have been blessed by the universe with everything I've asked for. I created a diorama of a kitchen at art school in 2006 and it is exactly the same place I cook meals for my family today. 

I will always continue to receive an abundance of blessings from the universe and for that I am so grateful. Those who have bared witness to this have looked up on me with jealousy. 

Any female friendship I have ever had, has given me the evil eye. No one will have a husband like mine. No one will have children like mine. No one is able to make the right decisions that will guide them in the directions of their dreams without making a comparison to me and all that I have. 

I have repeated a cycle where I allow a woman to fill the role of a best friend for far too long. It always ends in the same manner where she is too toxic, too problematic, has too much chaos surrounding and drawn to her. She comes to me for guidance only to ignore my advice. Her choices cause her own failure and blame is put up on me. 

Going forward, no friendships, female best friend relationships will be entertained. I am at home with my family and there's no room for a third wheel. I do not want to feel the chaotic energy that encompasses an individual without direction in their life. I do not want to hear the troubles of someone that does not have their life together.

There is no need to have anyone who is not uplifting me in my surroundings. I have done enough to bring up and inspire others. I have given the shirt off of my back and plates out of my cupboard to others. It is my turn to receive the abundance I deserve. When people are beneath me, they bring me down. You are who you surround yourself with and I have not been surrounding myself with influential role models. I have been the role model. I have made rash, impulsive decisions without thought behind them for selfish reasons hurting the people I love the most. These dumb little girls looking up to me have brought me down to their level and I am ashamed of how easily it was for them to sway me in the wrong direction. They wanted to witness my destruction because they envied my power. 

I send all ill intentions back to them and claim my throne. I am a powerful Sorceress and any attempts to bring harm upon my family or myself return 10 fold. I affirm they will never have the love or success that I will always maintain.